Monday, May 31, 2010
Saddleback Ride
great weather and a very fun day. As always, I rode alone. No problems
with the bike. The trail was bit loose at the top but I made it
without laying it down. I look forward to going again.
In Memory
of class for a day. As it turns out it's really a holiday that I think
most children would never understand. Honestly, that's the way it
should be. I hope my children don't understand the idea of loss until
they become adults. Remembering those that have come before us is a a
very important thing and one that's seems to be fading away.
I remember all the people good and bad that are no longer in my life.
My grandma Jane, who was monumental in my development. She taught me a
lot abot the finer points of life. She provided a sort of owners
manual for the human condition if you will. My paternal grandmother,
Karin. She taught me a lot about misplaced anger and how not treat
people. She really opened my eyes to the area of anger. Both my
grandfathers were a hoot. They both filled my childhood with great
stories of the years gone past. I wish I could remember them all and
pass those along. I cherishthe good and bad lessons that they all
passed to me.
I also rmember those who haven't passed yet but whom are no longer
part of my life. So many college pals. Somehow my life just turned a
corner and I left them behind. Kristina, the love of my life who
stayed when I left. I think I will always ask myself if I made the
wrong desicion. And to my friend Dan, who's father is dying. He was
diagnosed witha brain tumor a few weeks ago. The doctors removed it
but he's not recovering well. My heart and best wishes go out to the
family. He's one of the good guys.
I miss all of you that I can't say this too. Whether alive or dead, I
think of ourtimes together often.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Technology
I had a student in my class that brought in a new ipad. It seems pretty cool but the beauty of the iPhone is it's size. I don't think I'll get an ipad but who knows? I never thought I would have bought my first iPod.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Life without purpose
It made me realize that life can turn into such a challenge sometimes. We build these huge inpenatrable walls around us. We surround uorselves with these strange false realities. I started to think about my own life. I work hard to not build walls, and be very transparent. With all the work I do, they still exist. I feel for the guy. I could see how I could be that crusty pretty easily.
Of course accepting the fact that we are imperfect, and have problems helps. It took me a long time to understand that everyone has issues. We are born with baggage really. Most of us are fighting for something from breath number one, all the way till our last. It comes down to purpose.
We are born with an easy purpose. Survive. Than as a child that moves into, finishing school, and making friends. College, once again is there to finish, and now money starts to come into play. Now the hard part starts. What purpose do we have? I think many find purpose from either money, or family. I myself don't have much of either, so my purpose is to help my mother, and dog. It seems minor really, but I think it's a great purpose...